Hold on by Staz, Jesi Riddle

I know it's worth holding on.

DRABC

I am attending Level 2 First Aid course at the moment.

2days course. cost me AUD 185.

not bad.

guess what??

the location took place at Best Western The Tudor. which is right next to my house!!!!!

hahahahah

i'm so lucky.

Having lunch time right now. a 45mins break.

I came home and ate some cereals (cereal for lunch??) and watching Oprah and surfing fb as usual.

lol.

oops. it's 1.12pm. i have to get back at quarter pass one.

okay a full stop for now.

woooot!!

see ya

XOXO

missy.s

没那么爱

曾经在某个地方看到一句话，“看一个人爱不爱你不是看他平常对你有多好，而是吵架的时候怎么对你”。


两个人在交往的时候，

或许你的男朋友在平常并不十分细心体贴或是说些让你开心的话。

或许你的男朋友很温柔很体贴或是把你捧在手心疼。

我觉得那都没关系。

因为在恋爱的时候，没吵架的时候，大家都心情好，自然不会对对方太差。

但是吵架的时候就差很多了。

每个人都在气头上，都有股怒气想爆发……都是一样不满。

可是，真正爱你的人是不会因为生气而去伤害你的。

不管是动手打人或是口出恶言……都不是一个真正爱你的人会做的。

正在吵架或是生气都不是一个可以伤害对方的藉口。

如果够爱你，就舍不得你让你受伤害……不是吗?

曾经看到过一个故事：

“有一个女的，交了一个男朋友，外在条件很好，平常对她更是呵护倍致，专情的不得了，……那时候她觉得他是真的很爱她，从来没有人那么体贴那么温柔，她以为自己真的遇到一个真心爱她的人。可是，只要一吵架，他就变了。他只要一吵架，拼命挂她电话……骂她脏话……当他第一次这样骂她的时候，她整个人呆掉……觉得这是幻觉……后来和好的时候他觉得自己很不应该，一直道歉，她就心软了……但是，后来吵架，他还是故态复萌……同样的重复……她终于看清楚，这个人，不管他平常对她有多好，但是在生气的时候任意的伤害她就足以证明，他并不是真正的爱她。她对他，或许平常的时候淡淡的……但是她知道她对他非常的在意。所以就算在争执，她也没办法骂下去，她不忍，也觉得不该。她觉得她不该伤害一个她爱的人……

吵架该是一种沟通，不该以伤害为目的。

我们要学习的，就是在吵架中成长，在吵架中走向和谐、拥有幸福。

亲爱的 你就这样 说出 伤害我的话

难道 你真的没有那么爱我？

Faith in you. not

Am I asking too much from you?

I am not getting what I deserve to have from you.

Perhaps, I shouldn't have call.

Perhaps, I shouldn't be anything to you.

You matters.

Even a before hang up kisses goodbyes, misses me phrases, or a cute lil nicknames for me

will do.

I want more from you, but I don't get what I am suppose to have either.

Should I have faith in you?

I wanna have fun. 2.

You're having fun.

You've got the freedom!!

I wanna have fun too!!!

can I?

may I?

should I?

Wow wow wow.

you changed a little.

Fantastic!

I know you're changing. I noticed them.

I appreciate it.

No Hearts.

Whatever you like. seriously.

Everything, anything seems to be whatever you like.

You decide,

You say no , means no. If I disobey, I'll get the cold treatment from you.

You follow your heart, your mood, your principle.

Principle of yours especially. some are nonsense. are bullshits.

To not get the icy words from you, I forced myself to bow to your shits.

Sometimes, although you know that you're wrong, you still want me to obey.

just so u'll feel good

As long as you're happy, babe. As long as you put a smile on your face. For me. As long as....

You're forgetful. you said.

You have a stresscaused memory loss syndrome.

Due to stress, you forget what you promised me. our date. but instead, you went out on a date with your friends.

I thought you actually aware of our date yet still you accept your friends invite. Thus, I stop smiling.

Then you explained, you actually forgot.. cuz you have so much to think of.

My heart melts. You didn't know, so I shall forgive you.

Babe, you're forgiven. Come, a hug for you.

Not first, not last either.

You have no hearts for me.

Purple for the first. One and only.

Let's start off with some purple.

Let me introduce you, my latest blog,

Découvrez Miss.S mondial de l '

aka Discover my world.

What motivates me of writing again. It's you, Maine. Your words.

Yes, words are beautiful; it's the perfect way to express your feelings.

I am in desperate need to voice out my feelings, my concerns, my views, my rights!

I was about to sleep at 23:40.

Face washed.

Teeth brushed.

Emptied my tank.

Goodbyes and Good nights said.

Pyjama changed.

Laptop shut downed.

Lights off.

Alarmed set.

Blanket covered.

Teddy bear hugged.

Eyes closed.

but mind still thinking.

This and That. *Pop* Pop *Pop* out in my head.

hmmph.

Come on, I need to get some sleep here!!

hmmph.

tick tock tick tock..

Clock's ticking. (although there's no wall clock in my room) =p

half and hour passed.

Okay Okay Okay. I guess my thoughts wanna come out and want me to show the world!

So, I end up here. creating this blog. Blogging about the so wanna be a star 'thoughts' of mine.

Here goes....

Dear someone out there, I recently read your blog and read the post u blogged about me.

I was touched yet clueless. Clueless cuz I have no idea what could have be done to heal the pain I put onto your beating heart. Yes, I did get some retribution. I felt the pain, lifeless pain. And I realised, only the one who scarred you, is the only one who can heal you. I'm sorry and I am paying the price. Be who you are, don't change don't change. Because it's who you are, that touched my heart. I believe, who you truly are, will touch others heart.

As I was saying, I am paying the price.

Yes, I am paying. Soon, I'll clear this 'debt'.

Very soon.

Bad outcomes turned out to be a lesson learnt.

A phrase in mandarin, "从错误中找到彼此相爱的方式"......

Yes, indeed. I discovered, I learned, the proper way to love . and it's happening. =]

People changed. especially him.

I should be grateful, and treasure the love the care the warmth the tolerance he 's giving.

Don't wish for things that you want, be appreciative of what you needed is granted.

oh oh. o.O I shall sleep. guess what. it's almost 3am. wulala. Say Hello! to my darkcircles~

Goodnight readers! You know I love ya'll ~

XOXO

missy.s