SCREAM OUT LOUD

gahhhhh

had a really bad time of the day just now .

like realllllllllll baddddddddddddddddd

T_T

i tend to write more while i'm feeling down or sad.

i guess it's cuz it's the only way i can expresssss my 'no one to talk to' feelings inside .

this is something silly.

something we wouldn't go out and tell everyone about.

mmm

ahhh

SCREAMS!!!

and

BIG SIGH!!!!

you can imagine my face while i'm typing this.

so what is the problem?

I SWEAR I WILL NEVER DO THAT TO YOU AGAIN.

NEVER. EVER. FOREVER!!!!

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i feel like i've lost something.

I WANT MY PRIDE BACK.

lastly,

ahhhhhhhhhh

SCREAMSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cursed 21/10/10

I just wanna be happy.

i want everything to be okay

i just want to be the one who makes you happy.

i'm sorry if i m abit off and bad tempered the whole day today, and night before sleep.

i'm sorry i'm the cause of your sleepless night.

i know there's nothing i can do to turn things back and redo every mistakes i've made.

but i don't want to be like this..

this..

my dear, We promised.

that no matter what, never sleep with an unsolved fight/argument.

but tonight, 21st october 2010. We slept with a broken heart, anger, and hatred.

it's the 21st, our anni-monthsary. you can't be bothered.

i slept with half of my body exposed to the cold.

i slept with half mind awake just to catch you before you go in the morning.

but you,

you don't even want to look at me in the eye.

you hate me.

i'm the embarrassment. is what you said to me last.

I run and run till my heart could barely pound any faster.

till my blood could barely pumped to my heart.

till my mouth could barely open more wider to gasp O2.

till my legs could barely feel a muscle.

but you,

you pushed me away.

you said things that hurts my ear and heart.

it's our 2years and 7months anni-monthsary.

and you said it's your big day today and you just wanna have fun, without me, without having to care about my feelings.

i walked home, with tears falling down my face like a waterfall.

I just want to be happy.

I don't wanna live a day without you.

I just want to be the one to make you happy... Stereo in Secrets

This is just too beautiful.

by mayadstudios.com

Too Much "A"

Crown J

&

Seo In-Young

My favourite couple!

their signature "A"

Hip-Hop style couple

Too much!!! "A"

A very late Happy Mooncake Festival

Happy Lantern Festival

so I know it's very late...

but still..

hahaha never too late

Remember the times when we were young as kids, back home at popo's house..

the Tan families having dinner together at the round table, talking , laughing, enjoying the delicious food our dearest grandmother made specially for each and everyone of us according to our likes.

After dinner, we would all gather around the living hall, while watching television, there will be after dinner fruits on the table. More talks and laughters surrounded the house. Us kids would quickly rush outside to the front yard, feeling all excited to light up beautiful lanterns and candles. Each house across the neighbourhood would be lighten up with colourful lanterns and candles as the full moon brighten the dark sky. Back in the house, the adults would enjoy traditional mooncakes.

ahhh I missed those days.. when we were young and naive.

As we grew older, from teenagers to young adults whom we are right now... lesser we will feel excited. But to see the younger generation acted like us when we were young, it's amazing.

Imagine the adults watching us now, we must have reminded them when they were young.

anyways, as you can see in the picture above, I went shopping at chadstone and saw some cute small lanterns with lightbulbs , not candles. I bought it and decorated jude's room. It's red in colour as you can see. When you turned off the light and turn on these lanterns, the room looks romantic and all. teehee~

I love decorating.. but too bad i can't hammer needles onto wall cuz it's not my house! grrr

that sucks to the max.

Enough of talking. Let's enjoy the night before the full moon deemed.

She's cute

Introducing my new PUMA

She's a cutie right??

hehehe

Yellow is hot

Jude bought me this on our 2years and 6months anniversary @ Platypus Chadstone.

I was just showing him that I love this bag so much but i have doubts buying it cuz I don't know whether it's worth buying. I was like seeking for his opinions and when he saw it, he's like, "Okay, I'll buy it for you. "

hahaha

after he paid for the bag at the counter, I asked the cashier to borrow me a scissor so that i can cut off the tag. I carried this cutie since then whenever i go out, wherever i go. even to work ;D

anyway,

I love it so much . end of story.

p/s I think it's sorta like limited edition or something. cuz there's only this yellow and another white one left in the store. only 1 i guess. ;D hopefully.

Flowerpot love.

listen to my background music.

Flowerpot - loveholic

heard this from 'We got married' --Alex & 申爱

*that is the flowerpot Alex gave her as a gift before he left.

*this is a slightly better view of the heartshaped flowerpot

There are times when we have to separate with the one we love and care the most...

This made me think of you.. and you appeared in my dreams more than once.

I blamed the ' non-have to' separation...

it's nearly the end of the year.

and i'm excited to find out about it.

I hope we can talk. at least.

For once, I see us in the future.

What is happening?

It's so happening right now.

oh yeahhhh!!!!!!

Apart from busy-ing with assignments and stuff..

I've been away from home for quite a while. Seems like home is here with him.

I'm sorry papa. T_T I know my soul did not stay home for more than 24hours.

I'm a bad bad girl. >_<

So.. time does prove to me that he's so so the one! hahahahaha

Yes I'm older than him.

that's what makes me extra cautious??? i guess.

like I don't wanna end up wasted my precious 'young' moments you know.

Besides, what for be in a relationship when there's nothing to love for?

Anyways, he's been so nice. like a 360 degree change.

I can feel it!

I"m feeling you baby jude.

Your sincerity, your SOUL.

I knew we'd make it through.

Enough about love love love. I know it's 'disgusting' . hahaha

I'm half way through Uni sememster 2. which means, finals approaching! OHMYGOD

I can seeeee myself drowned under tons of books.

okay till then.

stay tuned~

xoxo

missy.s

BIG SIGH......

><''

what is wrong with me?

there's heaps of negative thoughts going through my mind right now.

Why ? Why? Why?

am i turning back to who i was????

I don't want to !!!!!

HELL NO!!!

stop overthink SUANNE!

You're ruin your own life!

Don't lose this great chance for the sake of the nonexistent reality.

FOR GOD SAKE.

please and thank you.

GOD BLESS

Pools

Something to share!

Amazing pools around the world! ;D

Singapore

在55层高酒店的游泳池

别墅游泳池

洞内游泳池

Bali

德国柏林 河中游泳池

全世界最深的游泳池

speechless.

i feel like i am the frog in the well.

never knew there are so many amazing things out there. ;D

hahahaha

till the next post.

xoxo

2years5months♥

Celebrated our 2 years and 5 months ♥

watching INCEPTION

on a rainy windy Saturday afternoon.

On my way . On a bus.

Excited ♥

FOOD always come first in our mind. teehee~

trying a new restaurant.

大娘拉面

so tank!

小笼包，炸酱面，羊汤拉面

after filling our stomach

off we go to the movies. ;D

toodles~

Happy J.a.n.n.e Day ♥

aka lilpigworm

Killing me softly.

YES indeed.

No doubt.

Assignments are killing me softly.

the past 6months, I have not been in touch with books.

No stress, no worries, no ''i don't enough time'' excuses.

tahaha

reading my friends posts on fb about the full load of assignments, tests, assignments, and assignments, I was lucky. Lucky to not have to experience the stresssss from UNI workloads.

however, how i wish to be at uni starting my course straightaway as well. Feeling lonely and depressed at the same time. Feel left out sometimes.

Bahhhhh

perhaps god has something better for me. ;D

Now that i've started uni....

mm I can feeel it my fellow friends.

ahhhh

how can i cope????

well i guess i just got to try harder and harder and harder.

mm

pooops.

times out!

Now I get to say, " I don't have enough time lahh!".

Dance Dance Dance

Step Up 3-D

screened on

5th Aug 2010.

Watched it today!

9th Aug 2010

wohoooo ~ finally.

I missed Streetdance 3D. Now I'm so not gonna miss this. ;D

Thanks to baby (who's not a big fan of 3D movies due to his glasses which will make him feel uncomfortable to wear both 3D and his own glasses. ) yet he compromised. how sweet.

Well as some of you might be in confusion, YES J.a.n.n.e is back on track!

isn't that a great news??? ha ha ha

Okay, here are some of the great scenes in this movie.

The Tango ~~~

Loved it!!! sexyyy

super-duper amusing twins.

This scene gives me goosebumps! Oh Emm GEEE

The splashing water is epic cool.

featuring 'Moose'

the skinny curly hair dancer.

click on this link to watch the StepUp3D- Inside Look Dance Featurette

and you'll know what i'm talking about!

or Go WATCH IT!!

phewww. It certainly gives me goosebumps all the way!!!!!!

Goosebumps = super awesome by the way. ;D

hahaha

How I wish I could dance like them.

I'm only an amateur; They're professionals.

oh well well well......

Loving Dance movies!!!!!

certainly worth my $$$. at least for me.

stay tuned for nxt post.

XOXO

missy.s

情深易散

不要消失好吗

一个星期里

三天的快乐 安全感 幸福；

一天的不舍 挂念 ；

两天的想念 短却甜进心里的通话 一句温馨的‘晚安’ ；

还有一天呢

每当接近快乐时光 都必须经历一次的 沮丧 无奈 空虚。

这一天 刚好就是今天。

我仔细想想

留意你的细节

其实 都很好。

每次我都跟我妹妹说:" at least he tried. His efforts are more than enough. well at least he cares."

听听我的背景音乐 - 有没有 by 韦礼安

很有意思 很懂我心

".........你有没有爱过我 有没有想过我

有没有 有没有 也会有一点心动 的时候 但是说不出口

有没有 后悔 还是只有我

Turn on the radio Don't wanna care anymore

也许没有承诺 比较轻松 也不会有 沉重的枷锁........."

也许公开 没有益处

也许我们应该 保持在 ‘地下’。

做个幕后情侣 会更快乐

我会幸福的

有时候我会想太多

其实他没什么 是我活在自己制造出来坏的幻想世界里。

我发现 我一直都围绕着爱情

一开始谈恋爱 到现在 我似乎没有离开过爱情

有人说 我还没长大

有人说 我不懂得爱

有人说 我没有真爱

是啊 确实是 即使失恋 也只经过很短暂的伤心时期 虽然很痛 但痛得痛快

但是 我都是真正的去爱 轰轰烈烈的 没有节制的 那样爱

我还小吗？ 我还小吧。

我的人生 只有爱情最重要。

笑我吧 尽情的笑

没有其他事情比他更重要

我可以放弃很多事情

比如说 原本约好一起跟同事吃晚饭 但是我可以突然一小时前为了他不去赴约

原本答应会 去参加朋友的生日会 我也可以为了他 与朋友们搞得很僵

原本自己是很想多打工 赚多点钱 但是为了他 我也可以整整一星期不安排工作

原本正朝着自己的梦想前进 也为了他 牺牲练舞的时间

原本已很努力搞好与家人的关系 也可以因为家人对他的一点点不满举动 而与家人翻脸

笑我傻

我很傻

爱得太傻 没有原则

为了不给他添加更多的压力 我可以压抑自己 但是我这样 并不快乐

你们看到我的快乐吗？ 看到我的幸福吗？

很多人会说 看不到。

我还是会骗自己 没有啊 我们在一起的时候 很快乐的！ 他很疼我的 对我很好 很贴心。。

朋友们 也没办法劝说下去 只好说 是啦是啦 他对你好就好。

也许你们不懂他。

但我懂。 那就够了。

相信我 我会幸福的

亲爱的 有你真好

Net is back

Yohooo..

I know it's been a long time since i last blogged.

patience patience..

I just moved to a new house that's why I've been so busy.

besides, just got the internet connected TODAY. this morning.

150GB. 75peak75offpeak. not too bad.

bahahaha.

okay. very tired now. will blogged about the missed 2 weeks.

stay tune.

P/S date tomorrow with beloved hotty Tina.

weeweet

XOXO

Missy.s

Hold on by Staz, Jesi Riddle

I know it's worth holding on.

DRABC

I am attending Level 2 First Aid course at the moment.

2days course. cost me AUD 185.

not bad.

guess what??

the location took place at Best Western The Tudor. which is right next to my house!!!!!

hahahahah

i'm so lucky.

Having lunch time right now. a 45mins break.

I came home and ate some cereals (cereal for lunch??) and watching Oprah and surfing fb as usual.

lol.

oops. it's 1.12pm. i have to get back at quarter pass one.

okay a full stop for now.

woooot!!

see ya

XOXO

missy.s

没那么爱

曾经在某个地方看到一句话，“看一个人爱不爱你不是看他平常对你有多好，而是吵架的时候怎么对你”。


两个人在交往的时候，

或许你的男朋友在平常并不十分细心体贴或是说些让你开心的话。

或许你的男朋友很温柔很体贴或是把你捧在手心疼。

我觉得那都没关系。

因为在恋爱的时候，没吵架的时候，大家都心情好，自然不会对对方太差。

但是吵架的时候就差很多了。

每个人都在气头上，都有股怒气想爆发……都是一样不满。

可是，真正爱你的人是不会因为生气而去伤害你的。

不管是动手打人或是口出恶言……都不是一个真正爱你的人会做的。

正在吵架或是生气都不是一个可以伤害对方的藉口。

如果够爱你，就舍不得你让你受伤害……不是吗?

曾经看到过一个故事：

“有一个女的，交了一个男朋友，外在条件很好，平常对她更是呵护倍致，专情的不得了，……那时候她觉得他是真的很爱她，从来没有人那么体贴那么温柔，她以为自己真的遇到一个真心爱她的人。可是，只要一吵架，他就变了。他只要一吵架，拼命挂她电话……骂她脏话……当他第一次这样骂她的时候，她整个人呆掉……觉得这是幻觉……后来和好的时候他觉得自己很不应该，一直道歉，她就心软了……但是，后来吵架，他还是故态复萌……同样的重复……她终于看清楚，这个人，不管他平常对她有多好，但是在生气的时候任意的伤害她就足以证明，他并不是真正的爱她。她对他，或许平常的时候淡淡的……但是她知道她对他非常的在意。所以就算在争执，她也没办法骂下去，她不忍，也觉得不该。她觉得她不该伤害一个她爱的人……

吵架该是一种沟通，不该以伤害为目的。

我们要学习的，就是在吵架中成长，在吵架中走向和谐、拥有幸福。

亲爱的 你就这样 说出 伤害我的话

难道 你真的没有那么爱我？

Faith in you. not

Am I asking too much from you?

I am not getting what I deserve to have from you.

Perhaps, I shouldn't have call.

Perhaps, I shouldn't be anything to you.

You matters.

Even a before hang up kisses goodbyes, misses me phrases, or a cute lil nicknames for me

will do.

I want more from you, but I don't get what I am suppose to have either.

Should I have faith in you?

I wanna have fun. 2.

You're having fun.

You've got the freedom!!

I wanna have fun too!!!

can I?

may I?

should I?

Wow wow wow.

you changed a little.

Fantastic!

I know you're changing. I noticed them.

I appreciate it.

No Hearts.

Whatever you like. seriously.

Everything, anything seems to be whatever you like.

You decide,

You say no , means no. If I disobey, I'll get the cold treatment from you.

You follow your heart, your mood, your principle.

Principle of yours especially. some are nonsense. are bullshits.

To not get the icy words from you, I forced myself to bow to your shits.

Sometimes, although you know that you're wrong, you still want me to obey.

just so u'll feel good

As long as you're happy, babe. As long as you put a smile on your face. For me. As long as....

You're forgetful. you said.

You have a stresscaused memory loss syndrome.

Due to stress, you forget what you promised me. our date. but instead, you went out on a date with your friends.

I thought you actually aware of our date yet still you accept your friends invite. Thus, I stop smiling.

Then you explained, you actually forgot.. cuz you have so much to think of.

My heart melts. You didn't know, so I shall forgive you.

Babe, you're forgiven. Come, a hug for you.

Not first, not last either.

You have no hearts for me.

Purple for the first. One and only.

Let's start off with some purple.

Let me introduce you, my latest blog,

Découvrez Miss.S mondial de l '

aka Discover my world.

What motivates me of writing again. It's you, Maine. Your words.

Yes, words are beautiful; it's the perfect way to express your feelings.

I am in desperate need to voice out my feelings, my concerns, my views, my rights!

I was about to sleep at 23:40.

Face washed.

Teeth brushed.

Emptied my tank.

Goodbyes and Good nights said.

Pyjama changed.

Laptop shut downed.

Lights off.

Alarmed set.

Blanket covered.

Teddy bear hugged.

Eyes closed.

but mind still thinking.

This and That. *Pop* Pop *Pop* out in my head.

hmmph.

Come on, I need to get some sleep here!!

hmmph.

tick tock tick tock..

Clock's ticking. (although there's no wall clock in my room) =p

half and hour passed.

Okay Okay Okay. I guess my thoughts wanna come out and want me to show the world!

So, I end up here. creating this blog. Blogging about the so wanna be a star 'thoughts' of mine.

Here goes....

Dear someone out there, I recently read your blog and read the post u blogged about me.

I was touched yet clueless. Clueless cuz I have no idea what could have be done to heal the pain I put onto your beating heart. Yes, I did get some retribution. I felt the pain, lifeless pain. And I realised, only the one who scarred you, is the only one who can heal you. I'm sorry and I am paying the price. Be who you are, don't change don't change. Because it's who you are, that touched my heart. I believe, who you truly are, will touch others heart.

As I was saying, I am paying the price.

Yes, I am paying. Soon, I'll clear this 'debt'.

Very soon.

Bad outcomes turned out to be a lesson learnt.

A phrase in mandarin, "从错误中找到彼此相爱的方式"......

Yes, indeed. I discovered, I learned, the proper way to love . and it's happening. =]

People changed. especially him.

I should be grateful, and treasure the love the care the warmth the tolerance he 's giving.

Don't wish for things that you want, be appreciative of what you needed is granted.

oh oh. o.O I shall sleep. guess what. it's almost 3am. wulala. Say Hello! to my darkcircles~

Goodnight readers! You know I love ya'll ~

XOXO

missy.s